I'mJustAGirl, I'mSorry(:

posting this here because I didnt want somebody to see this on my other account.

I miss him. Even though we’ve both moved on, I still miss him. He’s with that blonde girl now, and I looked at her pictures, she’s so beautiful. No wonder why he dumped me. Yes, I have a boyfriend. I can’t control my feelings. Just the fact that we can never be the same again hurts so much. Things have changed too much. and I miss him so much.. I keep saying that because I do. I wasn’t good enough. I pressured him into doing something we both didn’t really want to do.

Just, fuck.

I ruined it. But that’s life, you know?
Sometimes I actually wonder if I loved him. Two months, is that enough to love somebody? Well, I definitely really really REALLY fucking liked him.

anyway.
yeah..

new blog;

http://lullaby-esque.tumblr.com

closing down this tumblr.

but keeping it.. just to look back on, for later in life. I’ve used tumblr for about 8 months with this account, and trust me, I love it.. but I just want to start over. recently Ive been facing new things. New people, ideas, and thoughts. and feel like this tumblr isnt me anymore. but I’d like to not delete it, because Im sure I’ll regret it.

I’ll post the new link up later.

bye bye bethanylove. <3

[4:26:11 PM] Bethanyy(::
so why does part of me just want to get away??? when it fucking kills me inside??

[4:26:15 PM] Bethanyy(::
i dont fucking understand it??

Petahh (::
but i dont want to be one of those people. the boyfriend, who wont let the girlfriend do anything she wants, because he doesnt like it. thats not what it should be like
you should be able to do whatever you want, i shouldnt have to be in the way of that. its your life, and i just want you to be happy

Bethanyy(::
its my life but youre in it with me. :/

Petahh (::
well that makes it our life

Bethanyy(::
exactly.